Saturday, March 1, 2008

[Diary] Promise broken


You know, after that day, I changed. I am no longer the same person I was 6 months ago. I don't know what is different, but I know I am not the same, and I know I never will be again. I am not the same person who believed in fate... I won't believe in 'signs' anymore, because they really don't mean anything, no matter how bad you wish or hope they do. As of right now, I don't even believe in love. There is no happily ever after, not in this world. At least not for me. Not now. Not ever

I've been hurt by you so many times that I know it's better for me if I just give up and let you go, but you have been such a large part of me for so long that I don't know if I can make it through this world without you. You not only have captured my heart -- my soul -- but all of me. I will let you go and I will move on and maybe one day you will realize I mean as much to you as you have to me, but hopefully by then I won't need you anymore because I know how that story ends and to be honest with you, I don't think that I would be able to handle the hurt again.

I wish you would just open your eyes and see what you're losing. I mean -- it's me. The person you felt you could 'stay with forever. And of course I wonder what happened? I just wonder if you even think about making it better. But I can't forgive you for what you did. You didn't even make an attempt on making it better. You just let me go.

Thank you. Thank you for making me a much stronger person, who knows what it's like to be hurt, who knows what its like to cry and who knows how to pick up the pieces after you've broken them. Thank you for making me a better person, I'm someone with so much to look forward to and so much to gain from cause basically, I'm someone you're not


I sit here crying not because I miss you but because I know I will never have the chance to hurt you like you hurt me ^.^ So stupid

Honestly am I that wrong? Is it me every time?

The happiness came and went. Within seconds it passed. I didn't know it was possible to break a promise so fast.