Feelings

The most important thing is that you must show me your normal status. You don't want to become a liar, do you? Like I said on that message, at least take care of yourself. Don't need to talk back, don't need to say something like "It's alright, don't worry,...".

I don't know what am I doing now. Can't keep the word "Why" out of mind. Is there any choice? Is there another way? Is there a clue? Why am I still sitting here and wonder around? Why don't I ask anything? What is it? Where did I go wrong?

May be I know, may be not. I know exactly reason, the real reason that you 'll never know. I don't understand because I don't want to accept the fact... I know nothing because I don't want to know the worst. So that I can't do anything but wait. That is all I can do now. May be, it is considered stupid, coward or anything action. But what must I do other than waiting? That is not the thing I really want.

So suddenly... Once again I must ask "Am I a cold blood one?" Are those normal feelings? Normal actions? What are my true feelings if not? Is that what you want? So many stupid questions. Agrr, I don't want to think about that. Wait? I don't know. I don't know what must I do so I end up doing nothing. Is it called "waiting"? I hate that feeling. Not easy to receive. Empty, confusing... I said I must do something. I said I must hope. I said I ... Don't know what to say ...