[Diary] Lost way

I always wanted to try for you...I'd have done anything and more. But now you're so far out of reach. I've tried to hold on...but I just can't anymore. I'm tired of trying for something that never get any better. I'm tired of the pain. So from now on we'll live our lives apart from each other. It's up to you to decide for yourself what is wrong and what is right. And know that we all make mistakes, there's always time to turn your life around and change all the wrong decisions that you've made

I've learned from my mistakes and I've made a promise to myself : " I won't live in the past. I've been affected by your lies and I've let them hold me back. I wasn't thinking for myself. I wasn't living for myself. What I have in my heart I'll take to my grave."

… I feel so tired, just wanna take a bath and lay down for awhile. New year holiday was over and I have to turn back to my study. I think it’s time for me to forget all the sad things and reach to the future. I thought that " love is all I need in this life" … I know it sounds so childish but I did before . Now I find out LOVE is not everything . My heart were broken and just scare of breaking again. I still think of you sometimes and just wondering what you are doing. I hope it will be over soon and I think disappearing of your life is the best way. I hope you'll find a better girl, the one can give you everything you need and wait for you without asking anything.

Now I just want to be left alone !!!